Not sure what to do about this Sydney business. There are days and moments that make me feel very lucky to be calling this place my home, and I do actually tend to call it home, but then there are all the little things like getting kicked out from baxter inn at 1am or always taking forever to get to places or the lack of art that make me want to move out. But Sydney has a strong spell on many people.
In the past days, I’ve traveled to gold coast and to cairns and they were both good, solid places to see and experience. Diving in the great barrier reef was a huge thing for me – never could have imagined that I would get an opportunity to do this. I am waiting for something – maybe for life to get itself back in order – but the waiting is not bad. It feels like I can move pieces of myself to where they need to be and I’ve been fortunate enough to be able to make people around me happy once or twice again.
There are some things that I want but can’t really have, but I am able to enjoy what is there. I remember wanting everything or nothing – and that is still true – but being suspended in the middle and feeling like I don’t exist fully in either reality is OK, it’s even nice sometimes. I feel like I can simply belong to myself. I feel like I can take each day and turn it into something better for you. And that’s all I really need.
Music as of late: What So Not – Gemini Ft. George Maple